Weight Loss Blues

"You don't realize how strong a person really is until you see them at their weakest moment" - Anonymous

It is not easy to admit - but my weakest moments have been at the gym trying to finish my sets and push through back-breaking workouts and realising that I've not lost any weight. Realising there is NO positive correlation between weight loss and effort on the cardio machines is the pits! I could put in 3-4 hours per week (just in the cardio department!) and it does not guarantee any weight loss but there was always a possibility of weight gain. Bloody hell!

Often, celebrities in the media claim that so-so diet ensured 10 lbs lost a week; or a certain beach workout was a guarantee ab-builder. I find it hard to believe. Me, a regular girl, with a regular life, who was doing her best in the diet and exercise arena was barely seeing any loss in 3 weeks of relentless gym dedication. In fact, the only time I can claim to have lost 2 lbs was when I fell sick (I'd love to take credit for that though).

So things brings me to the next point in my epiphany (and I think I have loads of those as I am blanking out more often due to the lack of food in my system!) - Why is there such an emphasis on body type/shape? Do women just do it to themselves or is it perpetuated by what we see in the media? Or is it a desire to be different from what we are naturally predisposed to (We see it all the time; girls with straight hair want to go curly and vice versa)? Are we simply not enough? For whom? Ourselves?

I will be the first to put up my hand and go - I am my own biggest critic. If I take the moment to step back, and go, "Hey - It's OK if I've not lost the weight I wanted to but I'm making huge healthy changes in my lifestyle...."that should be enough. And you know what they say - when you watch something boil for some reason, it feels like forever? Maybe, just maybe, our bodies work that way too. If we take the pressure of weight loss off, maybe the weight will come off? Who knows...? But it doesn't hurt to give it a try.

Till then, I just write to Santa and tell him I want Beyonce's butt for Christmas....It's IRREPLACEABLE!